baby we're invincible.

2010-07-12T20:32:00.000+08:00

LOVE YOUUUU TONNES

2010-06-15T21:23:00.002+08:00

God my blog is dead ):
I am a bad up-keeper recently
cause of facebook, tumblr etc aww
but looking back my posts were quite awesome ♥

not going to delete this blog cause it has memories

2010-05-03T21:57:00.000+08:00

Badly ):

2010-04-29T12:30:00.001+08:00

2010-04-29T12:20:00.003+08:00

2010-03-31T23:03:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i wish i could ask god why ( if he even fucking exist )

like everything seems to be repeating in my life.

it's like a cycle that's never ending.

Fall in love --> Out of love --> Lost faith in love --> Created the great wall of china

or let's say (NO FEELINGS WALL)

and then one very day the same shit happens again.

at the most unexpected place and time,

i'll meet this fucking-err i don't how to say, GIRL.

that just appear in my life and just took my heart with her.

(oh there goes the wall that i build)

Oh it's the second time im facing this god-damn problem.

He created love, but i didn't know it have a time limit

like when it's gonna end, it's like FIXED.

WELL MAYBE FOR ME ONLY.

Hope he can fucking make up his god damn fucking mind and put me somewhere

And oh i don't mind hell but not this.

It's like his giving me hope and yet left me hopeless

and then hope again and left me hopeless, again

See it's a fucking cycle.

Fuck his plans, ciaoz0r motherfucka.

Well, FML.

2010-03-31T11:31:00.002+08:00

it hasn't been that long
since we drank to the sunset,
until it was gone.
and down with it went our pain and fear,
as we slowly broke contact more and more,
with every beer.
and we passed out in each other's arms,
both admitting we'd never felt better.
never felt so warm.
but awoke in each other's eyes,
without wearing a stitch of clothing.
we were both deeply in disguise.

and maybe i just set aside
the fact that you were broken hearted.
in my own special selfish way.
and if i hadn't set aside
the fact that you were broken hearted.
hell knows where your heart would be today.
maybe with me.

it seems like it's been so long
since we kissed through the darkness,
until it was dawn.
up with it came our pain and fear
that we'd already lost each other.
we both knew that the end was near.

maybe with me.

2010-03-31T09:58:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i fucking wonder, what's life all about.

Smoking weed, doing drugs, and get high all night
and not worried bout anything beside getting yourself home,
not care about what anyone else feels and just live life
like it was all just a game with a no fucking restart button
and not regretting any moment of it, cause prob you won't even
remember what happen last night.

to think of it, life's short you gonna die anyway
just a matter of time so why not make it shorter?
and make full use out of it. just to make yourself happy?

I wonder if i ever took life seriously from the start, or anything seriously.

Came to think about it, i can't depend on those shit every night.
Waking up aimlessly doing the same thing all over and over.
Eventually you'll get bored of it, Well prob everyone gets bored of everything
and anything.

Or is this life.

Falling in love and out of love.
Feeling hurt, jealous cause you cared about everything and anything and that very special person that just appear in your life and you fall in love with him/her hoping to wake up every morning right next to them, hoping that nothing goes wrong worrying about future sake. Hoping that she'll still be there tomorrow the day after and every single day as long as your heart still beat and your lungs are still breathing. And sometimes you wished you didn't cared cause it'll hurt you either way but you can't cause that someone means more than everything that you've could ever imagine to you.
And sometimes.. You wish and hope that the very person feels the same about you and think about you as much as you think about her.

And again,
Wish don't always come true and hopes are often seems hopeless
And dreams usually get crushed and so does your heart.

2010-03-28T12:48:00.000+08:00

HOPE I BOOK OUT ON THURSDAY~

GOOD FRIDAY THIS WEEK.

<3<3

2010-03-21T00:01:00.001+08:00

TEEHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
<3

2010-03-08T03:29:00.001+08:00

Fuckyeah NATIONAL SERVICE.
fuck 1 more day fuck fuck fuck
mentally not prepared!
<3

2010-03-05T23:14:00.000+08:00

You're the strength I need to fight,
You're the reason I still try,
I'm the moth and you're the light,
Use these wings so I can fly.

2010-03-05T03:01:00.001+08:00

FUCKYEAH? NO.
HELLYEAH!? NONO.
FUCKHELLYEAH.

2010-03-05T00:23:00.003+08:00

my life was spared today, thank god.

2010-03-04T15:30:00.001+08:00

RIVER SIDE MOTHER FUCKER!

2010-03-04T06:04:00.003+08:00

Thanks for those who came.
really had fun, sadly i didn't died.
NICE TRY!
20 secs, and afew shots no kick bros.
maybe more on 151, or abstine, would do good.
anyway had fun at butter and stjames
fuckyeahstjames <3 dad.

I NEVER TOH! just got home :P
fuck yeah!

2010-03-03T16:15:00.003+08:00

If i end up in the hospital tonight,
means i don't have an iron liver!
i can't escape. bloody friends say they will stalk me!
my gawd.
''if you can walk you cannot go home, hospital at least''

BUT I WILL LIVE UP TO MY NAME
I WONT TOH! (I THINK)
i'll behave and keep my hand to myself (:

2010-03-03T03:19:00.001+08:00

And this too. LOL

2010-03-03T03:14:00.000+08:00

Found this funny,

caught my attention.

well a little (:

2010-03-02T17:34:00.001+08:00

I think I've found my other half
I swear I've found my better half

2010-03-02T17:27:00.001+08:00

i'm the biggest idiot ever lived.

2010-03-02T02:37:00.002+08:00

she love you enough to take your shit everyday.
if i was you i would stop whinning, really.

2010-03-02T00:21:00.001+08:00

sometimes i just wish.

2010-03-01T03:30:00.002+08:00

i slept , thinking it’ll be a mundane night
i dreamt, never knew i’d dream of that
dreaming of you , it’s nothing different
dreaming of you with an addition , it started to hurt so bad
those sleepless nights were nothing compared to last night
it was so bad, like real bad.
my heart was thumping so loud , so fast till clenched my fist and i tried
i tried to do whatever i can to make sure i’m in control of myself
i tried to make sure that i don’t make any sound.
makes me feel like screaming, screaming under my pillows.
and i suffer myself , within me with noone to worry for me.
i cried , i bled , i hold on for hours
i couldn’t take it.
i couldn’t fall back to sleep , i couldn’t breathe
i could do nothing
why does it feels like you have to go.
leaving my heart so cold.
why would things be like this
what did I do to deserve this
i can’t. you know i fucking can’t
l’ll do anything , really . i swear
i fuckin’ swear, anything..

but fuck , life goes on
that's what they say
''one life, live it or fuck it''
if i carry on like that , i’m just gonna bring myself down
again and again we go back to square one
i can’t let that happen .
i know if it’s fate , it will be fate in the future
if it’s not , then fuck fate, fuck everything, fuck believes
i'll carry on dreaming
i’d carry on living with this pain
sometimes , pain brings upon happiness
i’m happy cos you’re still in me
i’d be happy…
i will..
i love you sweetheart.
ill live in the entrails of you.

QUIXOTIC

2010-03-01T01:43:00.003+08:00

Q U I X O T I C.

you were made for something bigger

bigger than my hell.

2010-02-28T16:46:00.001+08:00

The ghost of a pathetic past is haunting me here more and more
The skeletons are laughing at me through the closet door
And now past lovers share these covers
Sleeping with my enemies
Thoughts of others come between us
Trigger fits of jealousy

damn this gonna hurt.

2010-02-27T23:28:00.002+08:00

I remember i used to tell my friends,
that i dont believe in miracles and love.
And i live my life that way.
but that fine day you came around,
I don't know how but everything start to change.
And then i realised miracle exist
cause i had mine and it was you.

2010-02-27T19:41:00.002+08:00

stay home/or powerhouse.

2010-02-27T12:51:00.001+08:00

NOW DANCE FUCKER DANCE!

2010-02-26T22:12:00.000+08:00

2010-02-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

2010-02-22T23:30:00.001+08:00

there are many things in life that will capture your eye, but very few will capture your heart. These are the ones to pursue. These are the ones worth keeping...

2010-02-22T21:50:00.003+08:00

5th April,

ESWC

(E-SPORTS WORLD CHAMPIONSHIP)

Let's do it again

for old time sake.

PARIS FOR THE WIN!

We did it for the whole of 2007-2008

unbeatable streak.

dont let 2009 bring us down.

we came in second but that's not so bad.

WHY NOT 2010 GUYS?

WHAT SAY YOU?

2010-02-21T22:27:00.000+08:00

MAI LAI LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA WAH LAN EH?

2010-02-21T20:28:00.001+08:00

Our good intentions are lost with innocence,
the daily grind can drain the heart.
So commonly we all lose our common sense,
and I feel the worst when we’re apart.

2010-02-21T20:04:00.001+08:00

The moon you've felt, it has no side
That's dark like hell, or safe from light
Just blown apart, by wind from stars
With white dust tides to pull on ours

2010-02-20T22:22:00.003+08:00

PARTY!

PARTY!
PARTY!

PARTY!

BOOZE

BOOZE
BOOZE

BOOZE

and you. ♥

2010-02-20T19:40:00.001+08:00

<333333333~

2010-02-20T03:39:00.003+08:00

i used to think that there's no such meaning as love.
like it didnt exist in my dictionary.
but now i forgot the meaning of high.
like booze and party and booze and party.
fuck, but i dont think i need that anymore. hmm?

2010-02-20T03:36:00.000+08:00

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM...........?

2010-02-15T23:57:00.001+08:00

Warning: If you are reading this then this warning is for you. Every word you read of this useless fine print is another second off your life. Don't you have other things to do? Is your life so empty that you honestly can't think of a better way to spend these moments? Or are you so impressed with authority that you give respect and credence to all that claim it? Do you read everything you're supposed to read? Do you think every thing you're supposed to think? Buy what you're told to want? Get out of your apartment. Meet a member of the opposite sex. Stop the excessive shopping and masturbation. Quit your job. Start a fight. Prove you're alive. If you don't claim your humanity you will become a statistic. You have been warned-

2010-02-15T23:49:00.001+08:00

FIGHT CLUB!

just like old time, my glorious days made history in singapore gaming. (:

2010-02-15T18:03:00.006+08:00

PdM™ has revamped their roster and you'll find some familiar faces. We are proud to announce that 2 local talents, jensen and marvz from Team X3G, has joined PandemoniuM!

To fill the currently vacant 5th spot of spyko due to him winning KODE5 SEA with Team ExsequoR[xqR.AG], he had to represent Singapore with ExsequoR[xqR.AG] for KODE5 on May in Russia and therefore he had to focus more on his 1.6 instead of CS:Source.

PdM™ has acquired the experienced services of jensen. Begin a very seasoned player known for his invaluable game-sense and firepower, PdM™ hopes for him to fill the very large shoes of spyko being our in-game commander. With this two latest addition to PdM™, it will not only strengthen our squad and is also our pleasure to have them with us.

Aside from this exciting announcement, it is no secret that the loss of spyko and his exceptional abilities and clutches in-game will hurt the team - he will be greatly missed by PdM™. Thus, jensen is going to replace spyko in our main line-up for Team PdM™. We hereby, all of PdM™, wish spyko and ExseqouR[xqR.AG] all the best in their KODE5 at Russia making Singapore proud.

So stay tune and be sure to catch our two latest addititon to PdM™ in any CS:Source upcoming compy. As the events draw nearer do expect to see more regular updates.

Till then!

Posted by Darren<3 PdM

After catching up with jensen and marvin at MOS on 1/3/2008.

It was an enjoyable and fun night too seeing Marz with his melbourne shuffle and drinking session with jensen.

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i miss those days travelling with my team-mates.
i miss the hardwork we put 6 days a week, training.( oh i'm not lifeless, we're just paid to play )
i miss playing on stage where the singapore crowd go crazy after we win.
i miss the glory and pride and the tears after winning.

source from : http://www.team-pdm.net/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=9:news4&catid=1:latest&Itemid=113

2010-02-14T14:59:00.000+08:00

So now you're running, it's hard to see clearly
When I make you angry, you're stuck in the past
And now you're screaming, so can you forgive me?
I've treated you badly, but I am still here

Sometimes I wonder, why I'm still waiting
Sometimes I'm shaking, that's how you make me
Sometimes I question why I'm still here
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy

can you help me understand ? (:

2010-02-13T13:24:00.001+08:00

secret love, my escape take my far far away!

2010-02-12T13:51:00.004+08:00

wishfuckinglistaftercny.

1. dior jeans
2. full arm.
3. shop
4. FUCK! ns.
but it's okay no sweat no sweat, easy easy.

random chant.

2010-02-11T14:30:00.004+08:00

"a leopard will never change it's spots"

i'm not born with those spots,
i was born pure, innocent just like fucking every single one of you.
i'm not a devil's child with 2 horns
i was born with a heart, not stone.
i feel pain, not nothing.
and thats why something made me that way i was once.
so fuck that quote.

it's like someone pretending to be someone else,
putting those spots on itself. it's not permanent.

just you're born a tiger, but you wanted to be a leopard so you put that spots on pretending to be something else. you can't pretend for the rest of your fucking life.
eventually you'll be bored of it and be yourself again.
it'll go away one day. so don't use that fucking quote
to judge me yeah. you don't even know me, not even my dad
so get your facts right before you judge someone,

not even god can, okay maybe he can but i dont give 2 flying fucks.

this is random and out of boredom, if anyone out there feel offended that means you're fucking judging people and not looking yourself. so think twice or thrice or maybe more before you people say bout others.

"judge yourself before you judge others, we're not flawless we do mistake for fuck sake."

z z z z z

2010-02-10T17:40:00.001+08:00

I was just a kid workin' for the man for the first time
He said "listen kid, you'd better hear my advice:
Treat 'em like dirt, they'll stick
forever to the bottom of your shoe"
Oooo

I said "Mr. Man, that ain't nice
you gotta treat a girl right
Take her out, wine and dine her, always be polite"
"Kid, all good-just do you but soon you'll see
she don't want no goody two shoes"

You got style, you got grace
But kid you try so hard
she just laughs in your face
Yeah you're a nice guy
With the wrong attitude
She want a bad boy

2010-02-08T11:44:00.001+08:00

i came here by day,
i left here in darkness
found you on the way.

2010-02-07T08:13:00.003+08:00

Thought the party would be totally awesome!
but ended up an EPIC fail one. (:
b4 12 everyone was fuck high.
and left 2 bottles for me to drink
which i never even drink.
no food, many drama by drunk girls.
making a fool out of themselve, funny.

ANYWAY! SELLING CHEAP MONDAY SIZE 32, BLACK ( STRAIGHT CUT ) - $80 wore once.
SELLING 7 FOR ALL MAN KIND SIZE 30 , BLUE RAW - QUOTE ME THE PRICE - STILL WITH TAG
BOUGHT FROM LA - bought at 159usd.
( never wear before. )

burberry polo tee navy blue ( euro size s, ASIAN shd be L/M ) bought for $120 usd. selling at 150 sgd never wear before too

Kenneth cole - bought at $40usd-60usd i forgot. selling at 60 sgd ( size M ) still with tag.

2010-02-06T18:22:00.001+08:00

B O R I N G S A T U R D A Y L A ! !

W A V E H O U S E B O R I N G

C L U B B O R I N G

D R I N K A L S O B O R I N G.

2010-02-05T13:35:00.001+08:00

saving up for the last trip b4 NS!

thank god it's only 1 year 10months
it'll passed like zooom zoom!
no sweat!

2010-02-05T13:03:00.000+08:00

And I wish that I was there when you took that fall
I'm too weak to pick you up
But I would've laid down in this puddle beside you
'Cause it's all that I can do
I didn't have the heart to tell you
It's really bad
It's really bad this time - paper wings.

2010-02-05T12:59:00.001+08:00

you can paint me pretty colors
and dress me how you like
i'm just an ugly moth in love
in a butterfly disguise.

2010-02-05T04:46:00.003+08:00

work went well, till this shitheads came in.
i would fucking slit their fucking tongue
rip their fucking heart out.
pull their fucking intestine.
and dig their fucking eye out if i could.
fucking retard.

and fuck ebuddy and fuck msn for not working.

2010-02-04T19:07:00.000+08:00

I love just who you are,
I ain't gon' try to change ya.
You are a shooting Star,
That's why you are my favorite

2010-02-04T18:53:00.002+08:00

make love, not war. (:

im gonna touch the skyyyyyy!

ice cream

2010-02-04T12:07:00.000+08:00

HANNA!!!!!!!

2010-02-03T21:09:00.002+08:00

cause i'ma good boy turned gangster.
and you dont wanna fight me in my extra small black tee.

2010-02-03T18:13:00.001+08:00

another nice song (:

2010-02-03T16:50:00.001+08:00

bad bad wednesday.

2010-02-03T05:20:00.002+08:00

I MISS YOU! enough said.

although it's only been a day.

2010-02-03T05:10:00.003+08:00

I got a new name from my work place.
Lalaland boy the reason they said was.
''Your body is here but your mind heart and soul is somewhere far far away''
True that, their far far away thinking of her!
At least the boss gave me a uber good comment that boosted my morale.
''If you're loyal to me, i'll be loyal to you, i'll ask all my manager to trim you up i see the best potential in you, come out of your shell and that's it you'll explode and in no time you'll be wearing suits not this uniform. And i'll bring you along to which ever place i'll work for in the future, That's if you prove me loyalty.''
how cool does that sounds? (:

Indeed i became guai lan, i said ''I would love to, F&B not my type of thing.''

But he replied ''I once hated F&B, but look at me now"
With smile big smile on his face he said '' Mark my words, I'll bloom you but first you must let me.''

Gave him the whatever smile and he said ''Hope to see you on thursday, Mr Lalaland''

GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!

2010-02-02T17:19:00.001+08:00

fuckyeahh

2010-02-02T14:27:00.002+08:00

would you?

cause i would! ♥

2010-02-02T11:14:00.002+08:00

someday.

2010-02-02T10:45:00.001+08:00

especially you. ♥

2010-02-02T10:26:00.001+08:00

It's not that complicated.
i throw fits, when i think about you
i feel like im going to explode
i am an addict, i'll do anything to have you.

2010-02-02T01:55:00.001+08:00

even fairytales would get jealous of me and you! <3

2010-02-02T01:41:00.000+08:00

you're the best i ever had.

2010-02-01T03:15:00.001+08:00

when i'm with you, i'll make every
second counts.
cause i'll miss you, whenever you're not
around. ♥ - Faber drive.

2010-01-30T05:40:00.002+08:00

Oh darling I wish you were here. ♥

2010-01-30T02:41:00.002+08:00

Yes i do read it.
I'll let you kick my ass big time, if i hurt her
and i mean it too. (:

2010-01-30T00:26:00.002+08:00

when the thought of her makes my heart race and i smile to myself, when shes the only one who can make me smile in the middle of my baddest day without even trying, that's love.

2010-01-29T23:02:00.002+08:00

Well, life's a bitch.
you gotta face it and deal with it and live it.
but i'm loving it.

2010-01-29T10:59:00.003+08:00

The way I see it, I got three choices.
One, I can shoot him.
Two, I can kick the crap out of him.
three, I leave you.
Well, all that's no good. You see, 'cause none of those options get me you.
- the notebook, again.

and very true much, none of them gets me you.
oh-so-diabetic, stop readin then (:

2010-01-29T10:50:00.000+08:00

learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. - The notebook

2010-01-28T16:51:00.002+08:00

you had my ♥ on lockdown!

2010-01-28T00:30:00.001+08:00

you're the best too.
needless to say

♥

2010-01-27T07:21:00.000+08:00

One day, a professor asked his students ‘Why do we SHOUT instead of speak when we are ANGRY?’

All the students thought for a while. One answered ‘Because we lost our cool. That’s why we SHOUT.’

Asked the professor again, ‘But the person is just right next to you, why can’t we talk softly but have to SHOUT?’

Everyone gave their opinions but none was accepted by the professor.

Lastly explained by the professor ‘When we are ANGRY, our hearts drift apart. To mask the DISTANCE we felt, we instinctively SHOUT instead of speak so the other party can hear us.’

‘But as we SHOUT, we get ANGRIER. And we felt we drift apart further. So we SHOUT even louder…’

‘It is the opposite when we are in love. Not only we do not shout, we whisper into each other ears. Why?’

‘This is because our hearts are very close, almost never apart. As our love deepen, we reach a state of communication where there is no need for words.’

‘We understand each other well enough just by exchanging look,’ concluded the professor.

‘Therefore, when we are arguing, DO NOT speak words that will make our hearts drift apart. WAIT a few days. When you feel your hearts are no longer far apart, pick up the conversation and continue from there.

6am and i'm watching the notebook.

2010-01-27T07:15:00.000+08:00

Allie: I need to ask you something.
Noah: What is it, sweetheart?
Allie: Do you think that our love can create miracles?
Noah: Yes, I do. That’s what brings you back to me each time.
Allie: Do you think our love could take us away together?
Noah: I think our love can do anything we want it to.
Allie: I love you.
Noah: I love you, Allie.
Allie: Good night.
Noah: Good night. I’ll be seeing you.

2010-01-27T07:07:00.002+08:00

you did something to me,
that i can't explain.
so would i be out of line,
if i said i miss you. - Incubus

2010-01-27T06:47:00.002+08:00

so it's not gonna be easy,it's gonna be really hard.
we're gonna have to work this everyday.
but i want to do all of that because i want you.
i want all of you everyday,
forever. you and me.. everyday. - The notebook ☺

2010-01-26T23:43:00.002+08:00

just the thought of you, i'll be fine again.
daily doses of nicole chang min! life never better.

2010-01-26T15:25:00.002+08:00

the way i feel

[Verse 1:]
I was told the true definition of a man was to never cry
Work till you tired (yeah) got to provide (yeah)
Always be the rock for my fam, protect them by all means
(and give you the things that you need, baby)
Our relationship is (suffering) trying to give you (what I never had)
You say I don't know to love you baby
Well I say show me the way
I keep my feelings (deep inside I)
Shadow them (with my pride eye)
I'm trying desperately baby just work with me

[Chorus:]
Teach me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart, girl I'm so lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me, show me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart, girl I'm lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me, how to love

[Verse 2:]
I was always taught to be strong
never let them think you care at all
Let know one get close to me
Before (you and me)
I den' shared things wit chu girl about my past
That I'd never tell to anyone else (no)
Just keep it to myself, (yes)
Now I know I lack affection and expressing my feelings
It took me a minute to come and admit this but
See I'm really try'na (change now)
Wanna love you better, (show me how)
I'm tryin desperately baby hey

[CHORUS:]
Teach me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart, girl I'm so lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me, show me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart, girl I'm so lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me, how love

[Bridge:]
Ain't nobody ever took the time to try to teach me what (love was but you)
And I ain't never trust anyone enough to let em tell me (what to do)
Teach me how to show it and show me how to love you baby
(Teach me please just show me yeah)
Cause I'm (willing)
To let (go) of my (fears) girl I'm (serious)
About (all that I've said)
Girl I (wanna love you) with (all my heart)
Baby show me where to start

[CHORUS:]
Teach me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart, girl I'm so lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me, show me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart, girl I'm so lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me, how love

2010-01-26T10:28:00.002+08:00

my heard hurts from fighting with my heart all day.

cute stuff

2010-01-25T22:56:00.000+08:00

2010-01-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

all to myself ♥

2010-01-25T22:15:00.001+08:00

i should be strong now, cause i believe things would get better.
it might be a little stormy now, but it can't rain forever, right?

2010-01-25T17:51:00.003+08:00

the minute she left, i'm missing her already.

and i know i'll never get enough of her. that's ♥

“ I was dead until you found me,though I breathed.
I was sightless, though I could see.
And then you came and I was awakened . - J.R. Ward

2010-01-24T22:21:00.007+08:00

maybe someday everything will make perfect sense.
so, for now i'll laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears
and keep reminding myself that everything happens for a reason,
and i never knew how happy this could make me feel,
and it's all because of you. ♥

you're the first one who made me feels like this.

that's love

but there's nothing i could do about it.

fuck it.

2010-01-24T22:09:00.003+08:00

feels like a walking zombie
and i don't know why i feel my heartache..
fuck it anyway.

2010-01-22T18:37:00.001+08:00

mother fucking nightmares.

2010-01-22T12:35:00.000+08:00

2010-01-22T11:49:00.002+08:00

maybe someday you'll understand why i do the things i did

why i say the things i said, why i feel the way i felt ♥

when i find it hard to go off to bed at night without listening to her voice,
that's love.

if only i could write this myself.

2010-01-22T10:14:00.004+08:00

I dont know, i dont care.
if i see you anywhere
it's gonna hurt either way.
when he looks at other girls when you look away.
dont wash your hair, it's too early
dont wash your mind, if it's too dirty.
i wouldnt change a thing about you cause'
you look like you, and that's just beautiful
you feel like you and that feels beautiful
the only ugly thing about it, is that you're not mine.

and it's true you're beautiful in everyway (:
even in ways i could never have imagined.
just like this. ♥

2010-01-19T16:25:00.002+08:00

An angel got her wings and we'll hold our heads up, knowing
that she'll be fine. We'd all be lucky to have a love like that in a lifetime.
Friends stay side by side. In life and death you've always stole my heart.
You'll always mean so much to me and it's hard to believe.

2010-01-18T19:20:00.002+08:00

please someone invent something to pause time. ):

2010-01-17T20:51:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling so afraid
cause everything i do lately makes you angry.
and i know i make it hard
but how long should i pay for being unappealing
i hope you still want me
i hope it's not too late..
wish i could take it back but you know i cant
i hope one day you'll understand.
don't walk away and leave without a reason
when there's too much to say that hasn't been said.
i know i was wrong and i'm sorry for making the same mistake
dont walk away..

2010-01-14T20:53:00.002+08:00

Tonight, i'm screaming out to the stars, he knows he owes me a favor